choosing life

from the time i was about fourteen until i was twenty, death was definitely a companion of mine. the thought of being dead or dying was always there, lingering in the back of my head. i felt like i couldn’t handle all of the emotions in my head and i truly believed that everyone’s life […]

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the law of the universe

there are two frequencies that everything in the universe, even the universe itself, function on: fear and love. fear is jealousy, lust, greed, anger, hatred, self-loathing. basically, anything that tears you down vibrates on fear. love is the higher vibration of the two and it shows itself in the form of prosperity, “good luck”, once […]

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life’s what you make it

  in 2014, i started my spiritual journey and at first i didn’t even realize that’s what i was doing. i was sitting on the floor with my dog at my lowest point in life, thinking about how miserable i was and how i was tired of being miserable. i was contemplating suicide because i […]

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rolling down the mountain

i’ve been finding myself rolling down the mountain that i’ve been trying to conquer. depending on the day, i let gravity just roll me down and sometimes i give it all my might to make it back to the bottom. it wasn’t like i wanted to regress – i just wanted to stop giving so […]

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25 march 2016

today at the vet, we were trying to decide how to measure puppy energy. “bouncing biscuit units,” the doctor says. “kausi measured 1000 bbu’s at the vet today,” i played along. after a genuine chuckle, “you’re very witty. are you a writer?” i wanted to answer yes. i mean, after all, i do want to […]

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my first step to enlightment

i remember the night i realized what my first step to enlightenment was: to love myself. at the time, the idea sounded absolutely absurd but it was really logically my only choice. i had come to the realization that i was always going to be in this physical vessel and i was always going to […]

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devan

my first impression of devan was he was loud, obnoxious, and what i would call a “fuck boy”. i felt like after spending a good solid half hour with him, where he played the music i wanted to listen to and asked me about myself, he obviously wanted one thing from me. after that awkward, […]

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